rip- clementine

so today will go down in infamy as the day that i was told "so, your car is totaled".. outstanding. i'm quite distraught. this is the only car i've ever known. and my dad is happy, cause he doesn't have to deal with all the repairs. merely gets a check in ze mail. but, technically i guess the car isn't legally mine, and with the divorce and all.. i have absolutely no idea what that means for me and my life of putting 3ok+ on a car/year.

seriously. this isn't setting in. i'm the girl that drives the cute yellow car. that's ME. and you, prizm, have ruined that. for that, i hope, that you will pay.

... not vengeful at all. i swear. understand where i'm coming from? please? thanks.

and just return my baby back to me...

xo,

sad sad little me.

happy december.

i have been up to a little of everything. i've written recently. which, i haven't done so recently. here's a little of what i did:

...perchance [he] is to instill the holy desires you've placed in me. to reaffirm the fact that I should desire a holy man of God. one that not only values what I say, but also listens to it. one that is so lost in God. one that appreciates the things of this world that I sometimes get consumed by- such as disneyland, and music and road trips and coffee. whom lets me be an intelligent daughter of God and in doing so compliments my femininity with his masculinity in being a son (and warrior) of God. who puts the best interests of Her people at heart by always listening to the call of the Church. one that can posses the courage to ask me out; can manage to keep a job. be well respected in situations where respect is due, and sometimes hard to attain. one that is selfless; loves unconditionally- slow to anger. one that can relate to my situations without pitying me, or making me feel less than because of. one that can see human goodness in situations where it isn't visible, but with unfaltering clarity. that can give himself whole heartedly to his community- to his creator. to get so lost in love for his Lord that the only thing keeping him grounded is this love. a man whom isn't famous, because he is so inlove with God.

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obviously this isn't a finished list. i'll undoubtedly keep adding to it. but, here it is- the beginnings of such.